I didn’t try to muscle past anyone, violence is never the correct course of action.
And it’s simple why — I panicked. I had an emotional response to a frightening situation. I was wrong. I was weak. Of course, I did identify myself as a physician very shortly after I was aggressively attacked, but that was too late. You talk of “rational” reasons, ignoring the fact that the situation was over extremely quickly and was mediated by emotions. “They are going to kill that guy because he is insane — FUCK — I have to stop the car — FUCK FUCK FUCK” was my thought process. I have admitted in other comments how I didn’t approach the situation perfectly, or even well. Next time, I will be far better prepared.
If you think I am an activist wannabe, why don’t you do a search, read my Twitter feed, investigate all my other postings. You’ll see that’s not the case. One thing is for sure: I’ll never be a bystander. All lives matter. Black lives matter even more to me right now. Why?! Because we should judge our civility on how we treat the oppressed, not the privileged.
As for you being a racist, and not answering your race-neutral arguments, and all that bullshit — I really don’t know you, and I really don’t care. But if you think the main problem with my story, or even the top ten problems with my story involve me not identifying myself as a physician — and clearly you are intelligent — then obviously the problem is deeper than you have insight to.
Meanwhile, I’d really appreciate it if you break your writing down into paragraphs to help me read it. Thanks.